want to kill myself

I go everyday speaking zero words pretty much every single day and weekend, aside from the occasional yes and no to my mam I dont speak at all. I have no choice, I dont know anybody and have no friends. There is just no way I can suddenly be social because ive put up with years of total deprivation and isolation. I feel really suicidal today, I've had countless breakdowns and been in MH multiple times. nothing can be done, feel like I want to kill myself in a gruesome way but I dont even have the energy to write a note



I made a thread telling myself to stop being a pu5sy but its not like that I live in total deprivation and its a constant extreme pressure on my brain

via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f35/want-to-kill-myself-308737/