So...wow...I never expected this o.o
Thursday, my mom made me go help her at the church she works at. I was really nervous at first, but once I got there, and the initial fear was over, it was surprisingly very easy to talk to all these strangers that I've never seen before. Though, I'll admit, my social skills are still TERRIBLE, but, I'm not that stressed when the interaction is over anymore, when I used to freak out about what I did wrong/what they thought of me for days later. Now it's just no big deal for the most part....wtf? I shouldn't be complaining but it's so weird, and liberating, I never expected it to happen so....fast? This is literally the first time I've been in public at daylight since 2010.
After that, we went to the place I despise more than anything: Restaurants. I was more timid there, but...After a few minutes, there was literally no anxiety, at all. My mind is blown. This old guy was even staring me down because the people at my table was being kinda loud and obnoxious. Back then, I would have been mortified, but I just ignored it and thought nothing of it.
The weird thing is, It's like the anxiety of going somewhere is worse than actually being there now, when it used to be equally as bad.
It's awesome though, I feel like I've finally made some sort of progress after all these years. It's just kinda surreal at the same time, I guess i'm just not used to it. :p
Thursday, my mom made me go help her at the church she works at. I was really nervous at first, but once I got there, and the initial fear was over, it was surprisingly very easy to talk to all these strangers that I've never seen before. Though, I'll admit, my social skills are still TERRIBLE, but, I'm not that stressed when the interaction is over anymore, when I used to freak out about what I did wrong/what they thought of me for days later. Now it's just no big deal for the most part....wtf? I shouldn't be complaining but it's so weird, and liberating, I never expected it to happen so....fast? This is literally the first time I've been in public at daylight since 2010.
After that, we went to the place I despise more than anything: Restaurants. I was more timid there, but...After a few minutes, there was literally no anxiety, at all. My mind is blown. This old guy was even staring me down because the people at my table was being kinda loud and obnoxious. Back then, I would have been mortified, but I just ignored it and thought nothing of it.
The weird thing is, It's like the anxiety of going somewhere is worse than actually being there now, when it used to be equally as bad.
It's awesome though, I feel like I've finally made some sort of progress after all these years. It's just kinda surreal at the same time, I guess i'm just not used to it. :p
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