Hi everyone my name is Hannah and I'm from the UK and now I've found this site I need to let it out I cant hold it in anymore...
I hate my life because of my anxiety and I have no idea how to fix it. I have no friends because I lost them all avoiding interactions and social situations, they all eventually gave up on me and now I have none.
I worry about everything, fear of rejection, fear of constantly being judged and people looking at me (e.g. I hate even browsing in shops because I feel I'm always being watched by others)
I hate showing emotion it makes me 'cringe' I hate hugging, touching, telling my family I love them. The only person its different with is my partner I constantly need reassurance and I am clingy and have an overwhelming fear of loosing him,Ive never understood why its different with him.
I hated working because of the social interactions and panic when using a phone I have now been made redundant and Im actively trying NOT to find a job because I just want to sit at home and hide even though I know I have to work..
I just want to find some people who feel like I do or who understands. Because of my hatred of talking about how I feel no one knows about the struggles I have, Not even my partner knows the full extent about how badly I feel. To make matters worse I play the online game world of warcraft .. which has taken hold of me purely for escapism and not having to talk face to face with people. I find myself in tears most days because I am so unhappy so I am just reaching out because today I think I've reached a point of not being able to feel this alone anymore. x
I hate my life because of my anxiety and I have no idea how to fix it. I have no friends because I lost them all avoiding interactions and social situations, they all eventually gave up on me and now I have none.
I worry about everything, fear of rejection, fear of constantly being judged and people looking at me (e.g. I hate even browsing in shops because I feel I'm always being watched by others)
I hate showing emotion it makes me 'cringe' I hate hugging, touching, telling my family I love them. The only person its different with is my partner I constantly need reassurance and I am clingy and have an overwhelming fear of loosing him,Ive never understood why its different with him.
I hated working because of the social interactions and panic when using a phone I have now been made redundant and Im actively trying NOT to find a job because I just want to sit at home and hide even though I know I have to work..
I just want to find some people who feel like I do or who understands. Because of my hatred of talking about how I feel no one knows about the struggles I have, Not even my partner knows the full extent about how badly I feel. To make matters worse I play the online game world of warcraft .. which has taken hold of me purely for escapism and not having to talk face to face with people. I find myself in tears most days because I am so unhappy so I am just reaching out because today I think I've reached a point of not being able to feel this alone anymore. x
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