Of course I know I'm awkward and even at times when I think I'm socialising/behaving normally that I probably still give off awkward vibes but I've been trying and I'm making eye contact and trying to socialise and not going out of my way to avoid people and just going on with my business.
But other so called "normal" and extroverted people are the ones that are behaving awkwardly like avoiding me and looking away, and I'm not one of those types that goes and talk nonsense to people or annoy them that they would do that. So it's either I'm extremely hideous or that they are awkward themselves.
Here's something weird that happened today:
I was eating in my car in the parking lot at community college, not because I was hiding but because I just arrived from work and decided to eat in my car before going to class.
I've noticed that when cars would come near and want to park in the spot opposite me and their car would be facing me that they would go and find another spot and the car park looked full. About 5 drivers did this and mind you I wasn't looking at them. I would look ahead or around when I was eating but if a car came near I would look down and pretend to look at my phone to not weird them out.
It was very confusing and I thought that spot might be reserved but it's not. I mean if I needed a parking spot and a person was sitting there facing me I wouldn't care and just park. Internally I would freak out a bit but who cares.
So what gives?
But other so called "normal" and extroverted people are the ones that are behaving awkwardly like avoiding me and looking away, and I'm not one of those types that goes and talk nonsense to people or annoy them that they would do that. So it's either I'm extremely hideous or that they are awkward themselves.
Here's something weird that happened today:
I was eating in my car in the parking lot at community college, not because I was hiding but because I just arrived from work and decided to eat in my car before going to class.
I've noticed that when cars would come near and want to park in the spot opposite me and their car would be facing me that they would go and find another spot and the car park looked full. About 5 drivers did this and mind you I wasn't looking at them. I would look ahead or around when I was eating but if a car came near I would look down and pretend to look at my phone to not weird them out.
It was very confusing and I thought that spot might be reserved but it's not. I mean if I needed a parking spot and a person was sitting there facing me I wouldn't care and just park. Internally I would freak out a bit but who cares.
So what gives?
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f26/maybe-youre-not-that-awkward-but-other-people-are-266554/
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