I'm so beyond feeling sad. It's like I've given up on emotions, and none of the actions I take make sense to normal people. And when I do feel emotions, its usually emptiness, anger or paranoia. I feel like I'm giving up some kind of bad vibe or something.... Yeah, I'm a pretty cynical *******. It blows my mind how naive some people are and they think the world is such a friendly place. The same people that believe in soulmates and "happy endings". Dreamers I guess. I'm more of a realist and let facts speak for themselves. It's almost like I've become this a-hole and put a wall up.
I haven't left the house for weeks, left school for the moment and don't have a job either. A nice girl messaged me on here about a month ago, but she got tired of my antics(and me of her incessant whining) and we don't talk. At least for now. Another loss in my life. She wasnt that far away either... I hope someone has a better life than the one That I'm "living" -__-
Feelin like a zombie
I haven't left the house for weeks, left school for the moment and don't have a job either. A nice girl messaged me on here about a month ago, but she got tired of my antics(and me of her incessant whining) and we don't talk. At least for now. Another loss in my life. She wasnt that far away either... I hope someone has a better life than the one That I'm "living" -__-
Feelin like a zombie
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