Yes, i'm totally bored right now and want to say out my story and join the communty as i'm still progressing in life.
I want to tell the peole my story, mind the english i'm from Europe.
I remember my childhood as the greatest time of my life. I had all, i never was the weird kid without friends. Before school all i can remember is the best and fullest time of my life. I think what made life so great was that i had social activitys, like all kinds of friends (male and female)
When i went to school, i started to go fat from eating junk food. All trough the school i still had my mates all the time but i was missing on girls contact. I made almost no contact with the girls in my class(no talking at all) . And it stayed that way until i graduated 9th class and left school. Before 9th class i was still pretty fat but around 8th class i started riding bmx bikes with my mates from class.
So to complete before graduating 9th class i had fun with my mates but not with girls at all.
Afther 9th class we continued to ride bmx with my mates, around 2 guys no-lifers like me, one full lifer and theres couple more not so close ones.
But we rode like all the time for 4 years, became good, went to parties. i even got girl talking and kissing but no sex, relationships.
As then when i was around 18-19 i started to feel what i'm missing. Girl relationships.
To complete...i was 100% socailzed before school.
at school not socializing with many people, especially girls
after 9th class started riding bmx got more socialized and lost my social anxiety not all of it but most of it.
Now at 2013 i fell in love with a boxing and muay thai originally because of
self defence purpose. But now its the second sport of my life.
I no longer fear almost anything in life.
Why?? not because of boxing but because, i finally came to see what life really is, fianlly got to think diffrently..
Life is a teathre like act. Nothing is meant to be as you see it.
Life is all about who is better actor. For example i'am the best social guy in my friend groups. Funny thing is, i'v got more friends from another citys.
Just because in my city i cant socialize with most people because of my past but at other towns when we went to ride. I was the first one to make friends with everybody, girl or boy. When you think you fear something just listen to some motivation tapes what i used to think was bull**** but these made me realize that life is a theatre and its mad easy, when played nice.
For example its hard to get myself lot of friends and girls in my town.
Because its small town and how do i talk to "facebook friend" who i know for 10 years but never talked.
If i would change city i could make everybody my friends and girlfriends, iv got all. I'm handsome, i'm pretty now and a good all around chap.
The hardest part is totally my past wich is holding me back in my city.
So guys, i want to tell you all. Take life as a act and act it good. Learn about human body language, psychology ect. Life is really simple once you are awake.And mind, most people are sleeping like i was when i was getting fatter and growing more depressed at school.
Once i adopted to think life of a act.What happened..?
Got no fear to approach girls, danger, whatever all went away.
I went to local muay thai gym. I knew what body langauge to use, how to talk. I acted nice, like a normal people. I came with no skills to a harsh boxing gym but nobody got nothing on me. I showed no fear and everybody wants to be my friend and i can see from their bodylanguage they aint too tough, even showing poor body langauge of fear.
I wish i could change city and start living to fullest but i'm also trying it where i'm at and yes it's not hopeless, i'm 19 year old virgin but i got many many girl "mates" now but yes the weird past can really be hell.
I belive many can change their life simply from thinking diffrently and finding out what life is.
I'm 19. If i think about my life theres nothing i would change about my childhood but at school, oh yes. I sure have missed alot in my life but still had a pretty good one so far.
If anybody is intrested i can link my material that helped me most.
I want to tell the peole my story, mind the english i'm from Europe.
I remember my childhood as the greatest time of my life. I had all, i never was the weird kid without friends. Before school all i can remember is the best and fullest time of my life. I think what made life so great was that i had social activitys, like all kinds of friends (male and female)
When i went to school, i started to go fat from eating junk food. All trough the school i still had my mates all the time but i was missing on girls contact. I made almost no contact with the girls in my class(no talking at all) . And it stayed that way until i graduated 9th class and left school. Before 9th class i was still pretty fat but around 8th class i started riding bmx bikes with my mates from class.
So to complete before graduating 9th class i had fun with my mates but not with girls at all.
Afther 9th class we continued to ride bmx with my mates, around 2 guys no-lifers like me, one full lifer and theres couple more not so close ones.
But we rode like all the time for 4 years, became good, went to parties. i even got girl talking and kissing but no sex, relationships.
As then when i was around 18-19 i started to feel what i'm missing. Girl relationships.
To complete...i was 100% socailzed before school.
at school not socializing with many people, especially girls
after 9th class started riding bmx got more socialized and lost my social anxiety not all of it but most of it.
Now at 2013 i fell in love with a boxing and muay thai originally because of
self defence purpose. But now its the second sport of my life.
I no longer fear almost anything in life.
Why?? not because of boxing but because, i finally came to see what life really is, fianlly got to think diffrently..
Life is a teathre like act. Nothing is meant to be as you see it.
Life is all about who is better actor. For example i'am the best social guy in my friend groups. Funny thing is, i'v got more friends from another citys.
Just because in my city i cant socialize with most people because of my past but at other towns when we went to ride. I was the first one to make friends with everybody, girl or boy. When you think you fear something just listen to some motivation tapes what i used to think was bull**** but these made me realize that life is a theatre and its mad easy, when played nice.
For example its hard to get myself lot of friends and girls in my town.
Because its small town and how do i talk to "facebook friend" who i know for 10 years but never talked.
If i would change city i could make everybody my friends and girlfriends, iv got all. I'm handsome, i'm pretty now and a good all around chap.
The hardest part is totally my past wich is holding me back in my city.
So guys, i want to tell you all. Take life as a act and act it good. Learn about human body language, psychology ect. Life is really simple once you are awake.And mind, most people are sleeping like i was when i was getting fatter and growing more depressed at school.
Once i adopted to think life of a act.What happened..?
Got no fear to approach girls, danger, whatever all went away.
I went to local muay thai gym. I knew what body langauge to use, how to talk. I acted nice, like a normal people. I came with no skills to a harsh boxing gym but nobody got nothing on me. I showed no fear and everybody wants to be my friend and i can see from their bodylanguage they aint too tough, even showing poor body langauge of fear.
I wish i could change city and start living to fullest but i'm also trying it where i'm at and yes it's not hopeless, i'm 19 year old virgin but i got many many girl "mates" now but yes the weird past can really be hell.
I belive many can change their life simply from thinking diffrently and finding out what life is.
I'm 19. If i think about my life theres nothing i would change about my childhood but at school, oh yes. I sure have missed alot in my life but still had a pretty good one so far.
If anybody is intrested i can link my material that helped me most.
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f25/hello-my-life-story-and-how-i-beat-anxiety-321681/
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