This to me explains a lot of what it's like to have SA during periods when you are NOT panicking and extremely anxious. I'm talking day to day social interactions that you have learned to get by with.
When I was 5 or 6 I couldn't even look other people in the eye. I talked through my parents a lot of the time. The transition into the real world was extremely extremely tough for me and has left me severely depressed and hopeless.
However over the years I have managed to perfect my day to day social interactions to the point where I actually enjoy talking with people in small talk situations. At school or work etc... I even seem like an extrovert wanting to answer questions and show off.
But it's largely a show and I'm never really comfortable in my own skin. It takes more energy for me to interact socially, even if I enjoy it, and I get quickly exhausted. And let's not even talk about situations that aren't small talk. Relationships, or public speaking I just don't do. I am terrified of presentations and the like too.
I never feel completely relaxed out in the real world with people and feel like I'm always in 1st gear reving away like mad to just do things that other people cruise along smoothly in 5th gear with ease. Sorry for the bad analogy.
I don't see how I'm going to manage to live life like this. It takes too much effort and I'm too exhausted by it all emotionally.
Anyone else feel this way about their SA?
When I was 5 or 6 I couldn't even look other people in the eye. I talked through my parents a lot of the time. The transition into the real world was extremely extremely tough for me and has left me severely depressed and hopeless.
However over the years I have managed to perfect my day to day social interactions to the point where I actually enjoy talking with people in small talk situations. At school or work etc... I even seem like an extrovert wanting to answer questions and show off.
But it's largely a show and I'm never really comfortable in my own skin. It takes more energy for me to interact socially, even if I enjoy it, and I get quickly exhausted. And let's not even talk about situations that aren't small talk. Relationships, or public speaking I just don't do. I am terrified of presentations and the like too.
I never feel completely relaxed out in the real world with people and feel like I'm always in 1st gear reving away like mad to just do things that other people cruise along smoothly in 5th gear with ease. Sorry for the bad analogy.
I don't see how I'm going to manage to live life like this. It takes too much effort and I'm too exhausted by it all emotionally.
Anyone else feel this way about their SA?
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f21/not-being-comfortable-in-your-own-skin-314146/
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