Why do I always wear a hoodie(with hood on)

I know the reason I wear it but I look like a thug with it on,cant go without it cuz without I'd be insecure as ****..Cant leave my house either way because I always feel like I'm getting laughed at.(and I probably am) I would do some self improvement if I could just get out of the house. If I could simply "man up" I'd probably have all I could want. Good friends,gf,can go to school(I went from great looking confident guy to guy who gets teased and laughed at,and called names.I dont want to fight cuz I will probably punch em all to bits. It hurts the most when the girls say it,those negative words. I got held back two years and this will be the third for sure.My teachers and principles called me a failure and honestly,I can sorta believe that.) These past few months Im called every ****ing NEGATIVE word in the book so what better way for me cut myself away from all that ego,depression causing bull**** and just stay in my room..............Where is my future heading...my self confidence is extremely low and Im getting more and more ****ed up. I avoid people and since they are all out there I avoid the outside. Atleast until I can build myself back up..............I have way more to share but I dont want this to turn into an essay.

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