My life

My name is Ivan Rodriguez, I'm an underage drop out who regrets everything. I failed my freshman and sophomore year, that's 2 years of my life wasted and in those 2 years iv made no friends. I have terrible social anxiety and ever since 8th grade it's gotten worse. It wasn't always like this I used to be a smart kid who used to be in advanced classes, but now I just feel so ashamed of my self. I wish I can go back and change everything. I'm 16 I don't have a drivers license or a job,

And the only friend I had who happened to be my stepbrother moved to another country. He said he wanted to move but I know his dad made him because everyone thinks I'm a bad influence, I don't know whether Or not if its true. I don't know what to do but, I know what I want, I want to move out. I just can't stand looking at my mom knowing I'm a failure. I think about suicide every now and then but I would never go through with it. Don't know what els to say but Hi.

via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f25/my-life-349465/