i have a beer belly and people laugh

ok so i noticed i have a beer belly, i use to be in really good shape about 4 years ago but then came psychosis, anxiety and depression, the doctors put me on medication that no matter how less i ate i still got fat, now im fat, i try to exercise but being on medication that makes you gain wieght theres not much you can do, the thing is i go to church and i notice people stare and smirk at me especially the young women in there, i look at them and think god why are these people so judgemental ok so im a little fat, so what, i see other fat people in here too,



just over the easter period i went to church the church was full and this guy

( the isle guy) walked straight up to where i was and points his finger and i looked at him and thought " oh **** he's pointing at me' but he was pointing to someone behind me apparently there was a space behind me that i didnt know about and funny enough 2 people went and sat there,



i mean out the whole damn church he finds that spot isnt that such a coincident, for some reason that day i felt everyone was staring at me , i even noticed people in the choir looking over staring, everyone was staring at me, why am i that obvious because im anxious or is it because im fat i have no idea. but usually i dont pay attention to the real reason if someone is actually making fun of me, those B*stards

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