SA keeps me from figuring out my sexuality

I've struggled with my sexuality all my life. I am physically and sexually attracted to guys but not romantically but I am physically, sexually and romantically attracted to women as well. If I see a fine girl walk past me, I'll catch myself looking. I've had multiple crushes on girls but never guys. I would want to experiment but with SA, causing lack of confidence and self esteem, no girl or guy would ever experiment with me to find out once and for all. I've never been kissed, only been on one date and obviously still a virgin. My weight doesn't help my confidence at all



I'm not extremely big like

http://1funny.com/wp-content/uploads...-on-a-rock.jpg



I'm more like

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-nX0OOoAZ_P...1600/cspor.jpg



but with less of a gut. It wouldn't be much of a problem but the girls in my school are incredibly shallow that its amazing. They expect you to be making money not even out of high school. All the good girls are happily taken. Even the bigger girls boost their confidence by putting you down



I'm completely unattracted to feminine guys. It's just that something about a guy acting like a girl that is a complete turn off. I'm attracted to masculine guys my size. But there are no known bi or gay guys like that in my school and once I graduate in a month, i don't know how I'm gonna meet guys like that in the outside world.





So you see my problem?

via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f26/sa-keeps-me-from-figuring-out-my-sexuality-385945/