miserable

I am so miserable lately. I can't find work in my field and I am hopeless hopeless hopeless at finding work in other fields. So I'm unemployed and it's killing me. I feel so judged, like as soon as I step outside everyone knows. Hahaha. I really like watching this busker play. Wow, I must be so poor and pathetic I sit for literally hours watching a busker play. Let me throw in my $2 coin. Woo Hoo. I am hating my life. (That busker is great though, nothing about them). I can't be bothered going to sleep because the following day is going to be yet another debacle. I'm having eating issues as well. I can't be bothered cooking. I don't see the point in cleaning. My favourite outfit is out of fashion. What can I do, just become a stripper? When will this end. When will I feel relief? Oh and everyone seems to hate me because I don't 'smile' enough and I'm 'shy'. Woo!

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