hi.
I am VDub driver, i am 49 and 364/365ths years old. I am married, and live in scotland. I have a birthday on monday; i will be 50, i'm suprised i got to here; and i bet i'll be dead by 60yrs.
I am fed up with my life, especially the hellish legacy my mother dumped on me, i am quite unsuccesfull in all i do and dislike my (so called) mother, i'm glad she's dead. I also dislike myself intensely because i was born from her. I didnt have a chance to succedd in life because of her.
People say that life is but a joke; its not a very good joke because its not very funny.
I have given such compassion and love for others, only to be denied it from many others. I have been a kind, caring, thoughtfull, even to those i knew it probably wouldnt be returned, to be kicked in the teeth repeatedly and especially by my own mother and siblings. I am however glad to say i havent seen or heard from them for about 14 years. I hate them for what they did to me and for the effects it has on me even now.
Thats about it, i cant give anything positive because i dont feel very positive today. Thats because i allways feel this way just before my birthdays especially this one my 50th.
thats all there is for now.:blank
I am VDub driver, i am 49 and 364/365ths years old. I am married, and live in scotland. I have a birthday on monday; i will be 50, i'm suprised i got to here; and i bet i'll be dead by 60yrs.
I am fed up with my life, especially the hellish legacy my mother dumped on me, i am quite unsuccesfull in all i do and dislike my (so called) mother, i'm glad she's dead. I also dislike myself intensely because i was born from her. I didnt have a chance to succedd in life because of her.
People say that life is but a joke; its not a very good joke because its not very funny.
I have given such compassion and love for others, only to be denied it from many others. I have been a kind, caring, thoughtfull, even to those i knew it probably wouldnt be returned, to be kicked in the teeth repeatedly and especially by my own mother and siblings. I am however glad to say i havent seen or heard from them for about 14 years. I hate them for what they did to me and for the effects it has on me even now.
Thats about it, i cant give anything positive because i dont feel very positive today. Thats because i allways feel this way just before my birthdays especially this one my 50th.
thats all there is for now.:blank
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