Honestly it's a gift and a nightmare.
First I'll mention the good... never gotten into an accident because I am aware of every single car around me. Also very easy to see peoples reactions.
But in social settings... man it's such hell. I feel every word, I see every gesture, I hear every sound. It's so draining that I can only tolerate about 15-20 minutes of social interaction a day before my brain needs to recharge.
So you know when people say for example just ask that girl out if she says no so what? Well there's a reason I've never asked a girl out in my life and I'm 24. It's because that interaction would stay in my head for years. I would replay it over and over in my head every day and analyze every word, every action and every eye movement that happened. I overanalyze it to the point where I think even about my posture and how I was standing.
In short, for every 1 minute of interaction my brain will reflect on it for 20 minutes. Because of this I can't go to college or go to the gym or do anything really that involves people. Not that I'm lonely because I'm not, I prefer solitude due to it, but even normal stuff like getting a high paying job I can never accomplish either.
/rant
First I'll mention the good... never gotten into an accident because I am aware of every single car around me. Also very easy to see peoples reactions.
But in social settings... man it's such hell. I feel every word, I see every gesture, I hear every sound. It's so draining that I can only tolerate about 15-20 minutes of social interaction a day before my brain needs to recharge.
So you know when people say for example just ask that girl out if she says no so what? Well there's a reason I've never asked a girl out in my life and I'm 24. It's because that interaction would stay in my head for years. I would replay it over and over in my head every day and analyze every word, every action and every eye movement that happened. I overanalyze it to the point where I think even about my posture and how I was standing.
In short, for every 1 minute of interaction my brain will reflect on it for 20 minutes. Because of this I can't go to college or go to the gym or do anything really that involves people. Not that I'm lonely because I'm not, I prefer solitude due to it, but even normal stuff like getting a high paying job I can never accomplish either.
/rant
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f35/hypersensitive-to-everything-that-happens-344457/
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