So i had a pretty interesting experience. It's pretty funny actually. I don't feel awkward or ashamed because of it. Just wanna share this.
My lil cousin came to hang out. Sometimes he'll come to watch me play video games. You know how kids are. I don't really play games all that much anymore, but when he visits i have to entertain him, play games, show him stupid youtube clips etc.
So after some time we started joking, i played along and kinda poked him a bit in a friendly way, the way you play down when you talk with kids. He's kinda spoiled and got offended without a reason, started disrespecting me on a personal level. He started calling me a worthless shut in, no friends, sick in the head, useless, playing games all day,blah blah. Nasty stuff. I started getting really pissed off at this, but he's only a little kid and i kinda tried to turn things around back to joking (even though i had enough).
It didn't work, he just continued spewing garbage. Then i stood up pointed at the door and told him to get out in a calm, authoritative voice. He got out without a word.
Did i over react? What would you do? Would you just take it all and bottle it with your face blushing red from shame? Those weren't the words of a little kid. He probably got that from his parents and older siblings. He pretty much confirmed what everyone thinks of me and why i dislike family gatherings. I prefer hanging out with strangers. I don't feel ashamed cause i've been working on my attitude for the last couple of months.
Shame and SA comes within because you're ashamed of yourself. Really funny how kids pick things up from parents and older brothers etc. Cause he confirmed what i knew all along. They pretty much look me down and thrive on my failures/weak self esteem. That's how most people are. They'll kick you while you're down and laugh at you. Mostly laugh behind your back cause they're too afraid to tell anything to your face. Kids are more honest.
I'm not angry at him at all. He's too young to know what the hell he's talking about. Kids pick up everything like sponges from their parents. No doubt he got this from someone else. Just felt the need to share this. Sorry if it's a long read. This pretty much pushed me to get out of my comfort zone and work on my self esteem even harder.
My lil cousin came to hang out. Sometimes he'll come to watch me play video games. You know how kids are. I don't really play games all that much anymore, but when he visits i have to entertain him, play games, show him stupid youtube clips etc.
So after some time we started joking, i played along and kinda poked him a bit in a friendly way, the way you play down when you talk with kids. He's kinda spoiled and got offended without a reason, started disrespecting me on a personal level. He started calling me a worthless shut in, no friends, sick in the head, useless, playing games all day,blah blah. Nasty stuff. I started getting really pissed off at this, but he's only a little kid and i kinda tried to turn things around back to joking (even though i had enough).
It didn't work, he just continued spewing garbage. Then i stood up pointed at the door and told him to get out in a calm, authoritative voice. He got out without a word.
Did i over react? What would you do? Would you just take it all and bottle it with your face blushing red from shame? Those weren't the words of a little kid. He probably got that from his parents and older siblings. He pretty much confirmed what everyone thinks of me and why i dislike family gatherings. I prefer hanging out with strangers. I don't feel ashamed cause i've been working on my attitude for the last couple of months.
Shame and SA comes within because you're ashamed of yourself. Really funny how kids pick things up from parents and older brothers etc. Cause he confirmed what i knew all along. They pretty much look me down and thrive on my failures/weak self esteem. That's how most people are. They'll kick you while you're down and laugh at you. Mostly laugh behind your back cause they're too afraid to tell anything to your face. Kids are more honest.
I'm not angry at him at all. He's too young to know what the hell he's talking about. Kids pick up everything like sponges from their parents. No doubt he got this from someone else. Just felt the need to share this. Sorry if it's a long read. This pretty much pushed me to get out of my comfort zone and work on my self esteem even harder.
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