I need help. I'm a 31 year old with the social and emotional development of a 15 year old, while being academically gifted and intelligent. The two sides of me could not me more diametrically opposite. And I'm falling apart at the seams. 10 years or more of being in and out of university with nothing to show for it. 4+ years of retail jobs in between. All the while living at home comfortably by mommy and daddies side where I didn't REALLY have to worry about the scary world. Now I've come to the realisation that I'm fcuked. I'm almost too old to enter the white collar world, experience means everything nowadays, I don't even have my degree yet yet alone experience and at 31 times running out. On the other side there's a world full of crappy menial labour jobs. I'm terrified of the world in some ways. So long as I'm in a structured environment like school or the like with set boundaries and rules I'm not too bad, though even here I've had several small breakdowns with the most recent being not so small. But dealing with the world at large, I don't know. What's the point? Why bother? I just want to curl up in a ball and die. And I've been feeling this way for years now and its getting worse by the day. I'm now exhausted beyond description every day and possibly facing a number of physical ailments as well.
Why keep going?
Why keep going?
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f21/im-a-31-year-old-15-year-old-whos-still-413121/
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