Just wanted to post about my experience with various drugs that I've tried to treat my SA, maybe it'll help somebody or something. Everything is more or less in chronological order, starting from about 5 years ago.
Citalopram - 40mg, was on this for a couple years, at most I would say it helped about 30%, but that was for only a few months at best.
Mirtazapine - Threw up whenever I took this and couldn't take it longer than a few days, the drunken-sickness it gave me was horrendous, felt like I was dying or something.
Risperidone - An Anti-psychotic that one of the GPs at my old practice wanted to try me on, I took it for a week and didn't feel anything, but I did have the most awesome vivid dreams of my life on this stuff.
Methylone - (bk-MDMA/M1) I had read that you could take this MDMA-lite every day in small theraputic doses, I was going to uni and I was desperate so I gave it a try, it was great also, for about 5 days until I got really ill and 'crashed', probably from lack of proper nutrition while taking it, as it really kills your appetite, even when I forced myself to eat it wasn't enough, ended up with a chest infection and had to leave uni after 1 week and come home. After abusing this chemical all week (I still took a ton of anti-oxidants to prevent oxidative damage to the serotonin axons in the brain) I felt like I was going insane, this was also during my first benzo withdrawal, and I really felt like reality was slipping away from me, I had severe de-realization and de-personalization, thankfully that eventually went away and I started feeling normal again. I still have some of this stuff and take it in small amounts very rarely now, maybe once a month.
Benzos - Diazepam, Clonazepam and Alprazolam , these work great, especially the klonopin and alprazolam, for about 3 months, and then I was just taking them to stave off the withdrawal effects, I could take 170mg diazepam and barely feel sleepy, tolerance had built up and these things were destroying my memory, I couldn't remember ****, had a lot of brain-fog, I had to get off them, I've withdrawn from these twice now, the second time being harder than the first, I withdrew from it rapidly because I wanted to get off them fast and figured I would just ride out the misery, I took the odd pill every few days to stop myself getting any serious withdrawal symptoms like seizures and such and it seems to have worked. Anyway when I first started taking benzos I thought they were the answer to all my problems, but they don't last long =(
Note: I really think cannabis helped during the withdrawal for benzos both times, if I started feeling bad effects I'd just smoke a bit and it would go away.
Venlafaxine - 225mg, I was on this for about 8 months after leaving uni from my Methylone abuse and it really helped my depression, and I think it helped my anxiety a lot too, but it also seemed to "blunt" my emotions, which now that I've stopped taking it I am starting to notice.
Random supplements
I've been taking a bunch of supplements and such daily in the hopes of just improving my general health and mood, I can't say which one is actually doing anything, this is more of a "throw a bunch of things at my brain and see what sticks", some are just anti-oxidants for if/when I take some M1, or for health in general.
5-HTP / 100mg capsules
L-Theanine / 150mg capsules
L-Tyrosine / 750mg capsules
Chelated Magnesium / 200mg capsules
GABA / 750mg capsules
Vitamin E / 200ui softgel capsules
B-Complex w/Vitamin C
EGCg / 400mg capsules
Alpha-Lipoic Acid / 300mg capsules
Omega 3 Fish Oil / 1000mg capsules, 330mg EPA & 220mg DHA
MSM Sulfur / 1000mg capsules
Phenibut - I only heard of this stuff last week, and I bought a 25g tub off ebay, it arrived yesterday, I took a small dose and then 1gram later in the day, I was cautiously optimistic and well, for me, this stuff works, I felt great all day, my mood was generally good, any anxiety fell like a ton of bricks, I woke up this morning after what felt like the best nights sleep of my life and I've still been feeling great all day, more people should know about this stuff. Apparently it's easy to build a tolerance to and you should only take it once or twice a week, which shouldn't be a problem for me now after ditching benzos twice, I know I can control any urges to take more and have some self discipline about it.
The future - I'm also looking in to Aniracetam + Choline CDP, aswell as Picamilon, but for now I feel like this Phenibut compound is all I need. I'm also seeing a CBT therapist and I'm on my second session with him now, this is the second CBT I've tried, I didn't like the first guy. I have been taking M1 for the sessions which I think has really helped me open up and tell him things so he can get to the root problem faster and help me, I think so anyway.
Citalopram - 40mg, was on this for a couple years, at most I would say it helped about 30%, but that was for only a few months at best.
Mirtazapine - Threw up whenever I took this and couldn't take it longer than a few days, the drunken-sickness it gave me was horrendous, felt like I was dying or something.
Risperidone - An Anti-psychotic that one of the GPs at my old practice wanted to try me on, I took it for a week and didn't feel anything, but I did have the most awesome vivid dreams of my life on this stuff.
Methylone - (bk-MDMA/M1) I had read that you could take this MDMA-lite every day in small theraputic doses, I was going to uni and I was desperate so I gave it a try, it was great also, for about 5 days until I got really ill and 'crashed', probably from lack of proper nutrition while taking it, as it really kills your appetite, even when I forced myself to eat it wasn't enough, ended up with a chest infection and had to leave uni after 1 week and come home. After abusing this chemical all week (I still took a ton of anti-oxidants to prevent oxidative damage to the serotonin axons in the brain) I felt like I was going insane, this was also during my first benzo withdrawal, and I really felt like reality was slipping away from me, I had severe de-realization and de-personalization, thankfully that eventually went away and I started feeling normal again. I still have some of this stuff and take it in small amounts very rarely now, maybe once a month.
Benzos - Diazepam, Clonazepam and Alprazolam , these work great, especially the klonopin and alprazolam, for about 3 months, and then I was just taking them to stave off the withdrawal effects, I could take 170mg diazepam and barely feel sleepy, tolerance had built up and these things were destroying my memory, I couldn't remember ****, had a lot of brain-fog, I had to get off them, I've withdrawn from these twice now, the second time being harder than the first, I withdrew from it rapidly because I wanted to get off them fast and figured I would just ride out the misery, I took the odd pill every few days to stop myself getting any serious withdrawal symptoms like seizures and such and it seems to have worked. Anyway when I first started taking benzos I thought they were the answer to all my problems, but they don't last long =(
Note: I really think cannabis helped during the withdrawal for benzos both times, if I started feeling bad effects I'd just smoke a bit and it would go away.
Venlafaxine - 225mg, I was on this for about 8 months after leaving uni from my Methylone abuse and it really helped my depression, and I think it helped my anxiety a lot too, but it also seemed to "blunt" my emotions, which now that I've stopped taking it I am starting to notice.
Random supplements
I've been taking a bunch of supplements and such daily in the hopes of just improving my general health and mood, I can't say which one is actually doing anything, this is more of a "throw a bunch of things at my brain and see what sticks", some are just anti-oxidants for if/when I take some M1, or for health in general.
5-HTP / 100mg capsules
L-Theanine / 150mg capsules
L-Tyrosine / 750mg capsules
Chelated Magnesium / 200mg capsules
GABA / 750mg capsules
Vitamin E / 200ui softgel capsules
B-Complex w/Vitamin C
EGCg / 400mg capsules
Alpha-Lipoic Acid / 300mg capsules
Omega 3 Fish Oil / 1000mg capsules, 330mg EPA & 220mg DHA
MSM Sulfur / 1000mg capsules
Phenibut - I only heard of this stuff last week, and I bought a 25g tub off ebay, it arrived yesterday, I took a small dose and then 1gram later in the day, I was cautiously optimistic and well, for me, this stuff works, I felt great all day, my mood was generally good, any anxiety fell like a ton of bricks, I woke up this morning after what felt like the best nights sleep of my life and I've still been feeling great all day, more people should know about this stuff. Apparently it's easy to build a tolerance to and you should only take it once or twice a week, which shouldn't be a problem for me now after ditching benzos twice, I know I can control any urges to take more and have some self discipline about it.
The future - I'm also looking in to Aniracetam + Choline CDP, aswell as Picamilon, but for now I feel like this Phenibut compound is all I need. I'm also seeing a CBT therapist and I'm on my second session with him now, this is the second CBT I've tried, I didn't like the first guy. I have been taking M1 for the sessions which I think has really helped me open up and tell him things so he can get to the root problem faster and help me, I think so anyway.
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f30/different-drugs-tried-info-391769/
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