Hi,
I just wanted to vent here. I am having some nuclear family issues.
My mother beat me nearly daily when I was growing up. It's been since as far as I can remember 3 or 5 all the way up to 18 yrs old. She is an alcoholic. She is a liar. One day my younger sister (I am the eldest out of three) was getting beaten by my mother with a golf club. The first scream I heard I ran upstairs and wrestled my mom. I was feeling like I was going to kill her for what she did to my sister. She started beating me with the golf club too. She told me that if I didn't like the way she was raising her children then I need to get out of her house. I left. It was my ticket out finally. I had been planning run aways since I was like 10 years old. I have NEVER felt loved by my mother. My father yes. But he is not helping me out at all. My sister believes its my fault that the family is broken up. Jeez, it couldn't have been all the beatings right???? NAHHHH!!!!!
So my sister is a monster. I almost hate her guts too. I hate my mother. I hate my father. I do not want ANYTHING from them. I don't even want to hear her even try to give me advice. anything from her mouth is a lie!!!
My sister doesn't remember some of the stuff she has done to me and I have tried to forgive and forget but it keeps coming up. Things like why don't we do more things together? I don't because she goes behind my back and tells my parents everything that is happening to me. I feel like punching her in the face!
My sister accused me of stealing her wedding ring and pawning it. Which is a lie. She told this lie to an ex best friend of mine who I do not trust any more (she started sleeping with my dates) I couldnt believe she did that! I heard this from a third party and confronted my sister on it and she said well it's something you would do. I was SO PISSED!!!!!!! what a B****!!!
UGGGGG this was years ago right when she was going to get married. She had been through 5 other maid of honors and she asked me again and I turned her down because I was mad about the ring issue!
She is so delusional too. Her husband got burned on his neck and chest. I was with a rude man at the time and he called her husband crispy. Now, she told me that I didn't want to go to her wedding because I was upset that my boyfriend couldn't keep calling her husband crispy. that is a load of **** man. WTF ever!!! are you really serious!!?!?!?!?!??!!???!?!?!??!?!?
I was the most sensitive out of all of them and she keeps coming up with lies just like our mother. I am starting to hate my sister. I want to be estranged from her too.
The first thing she does when I told her I was pregnant was ask me if I was going to tell our parents. That I need to because its for her. **** her. I think it's bs that she even asked me and I told her that. I was pissed off after she left I told her she was a bad sister. She is! she has only been there for me once when I needed a ride to my aunts house after leaving an old Boyfriend. She loves drama. Uggggg. I hate how I have let her into my life. I have a letter for her that explains a lot. I feel like every time she and i talk about parents stuff - which she always brings up- she gets so confusing and switching topics all the time. I have so much to say to her but never get to say it clearly enough because she is frustrating me so badly.
I feel like i dont want to tell my parents about my pregnancy because I do not trust them. I don't even love them. I am so done with them and have been for many years.
I would drop my sister from my life in a heart beat to protect my new family. I feel better. They have told me lies from the start. I hate them all. I am pregnant and emotional too btw. LOL.
what i wish for is that i get some peace. I do not want to hear about them or from them. I wish my sister would stop getting attention during my happiest times. My wedding she was so cruel. now she is trying to get any attention through my pregnancy. I don't wish death or illness but I do wish never to hear or talk about them.
I just wanted to vent here. I am having some nuclear family issues.
My mother beat me nearly daily when I was growing up. It's been since as far as I can remember 3 or 5 all the way up to 18 yrs old. She is an alcoholic. She is a liar. One day my younger sister (I am the eldest out of three) was getting beaten by my mother with a golf club. The first scream I heard I ran upstairs and wrestled my mom. I was feeling like I was going to kill her for what she did to my sister. She started beating me with the golf club too. She told me that if I didn't like the way she was raising her children then I need to get out of her house. I left. It was my ticket out finally. I had been planning run aways since I was like 10 years old. I have NEVER felt loved by my mother. My father yes. But he is not helping me out at all. My sister believes its my fault that the family is broken up. Jeez, it couldn't have been all the beatings right???? NAHHHH!!!!!
So my sister is a monster. I almost hate her guts too. I hate my mother. I hate my father. I do not want ANYTHING from them. I don't even want to hear her even try to give me advice. anything from her mouth is a lie!!!
My sister doesn't remember some of the stuff she has done to me and I have tried to forgive and forget but it keeps coming up. Things like why don't we do more things together? I don't because she goes behind my back and tells my parents everything that is happening to me. I feel like punching her in the face!
My sister accused me of stealing her wedding ring and pawning it. Which is a lie. She told this lie to an ex best friend of mine who I do not trust any more (she started sleeping with my dates) I couldnt believe she did that! I heard this from a third party and confronted my sister on it and she said well it's something you would do. I was SO PISSED!!!!!!! what a B****!!!
UGGGGG this was years ago right when she was going to get married. She had been through 5 other maid of honors and she asked me again and I turned her down because I was mad about the ring issue!
She is so delusional too. Her husband got burned on his neck and chest. I was with a rude man at the time and he called her husband crispy. Now, she told me that I didn't want to go to her wedding because I was upset that my boyfriend couldn't keep calling her husband crispy. that is a load of **** man. WTF ever!!! are you really serious!!?!?!?!?!??!!???!?!?!??!?!?
I was the most sensitive out of all of them and she keeps coming up with lies just like our mother. I am starting to hate my sister. I want to be estranged from her too.
The first thing she does when I told her I was pregnant was ask me if I was going to tell our parents. That I need to because its for her. **** her. I think it's bs that she even asked me and I told her that. I was pissed off after she left I told her she was a bad sister. She is! she has only been there for me once when I needed a ride to my aunts house after leaving an old Boyfriend. She loves drama. Uggggg. I hate how I have let her into my life. I have a letter for her that explains a lot. I feel like every time she and i talk about parents stuff - which she always brings up- she gets so confusing and switching topics all the time. I have so much to say to her but never get to say it clearly enough because she is frustrating me so badly.
I feel like i dont want to tell my parents about my pregnancy because I do not trust them. I don't even love them. I am so done with them and have been for many years.
I would drop my sister from my life in a heart beat to protect my new family. I feel better. They have told me lies from the start. I hate them all. I am pregnant and emotional too btw. LOL.
what i wish for is that i get some peace. I do not want to hear about them or from them. I wish my sister would stop getting attention during my happiest times. My wedding she was so cruel. now she is trying to get any attention through my pregnancy. I don't wish death or illness but I do wish never to hear or talk about them.
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f35/estrangement-from-parents-308785/
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