Hey everyone I'm Wingnut. I'm a 20 year old stay at home mom to my one year old and I'm also pregnant with baby #2, due in October. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 15 so 5 years ago. I am non-medicated by choice although I'm trying to find a psychiatrist in my area so I can begin treatment.
I'm not diagnosed with social anxiety but I strongly believe I have it. I was shy as a child but now I believe it's more than that because I'm not shy at all over the internet or with people I have known for a while. I always stuck with the same group of people in high school but would only really talk to my best friend and boyfriend at the time. After high school is when I really began to think my shyness was something more serious. I'm a likeable person but I still hate meeting new people. I will avoid it at all cost. I also avoid any family function I can get out of even if it's just a small dinner with close family that I've grown up around. I have had one major panic attack from being in a public setting. It was around Christmas the year before last. My husband and I had to do late christmas shopping because I kept making excuses not to go. We were in the store and I was trying to pick out presents for family, I started freaking out about if they would like it or not, then more people started coming into the store which then lead to hot flashes, nausea and I fainted. It was extremely scary but all I could think about was rather someone had seen it or not and I couldn't escape the store fast enough.
I want to make friends and I want to hangout with other moms, have playdates, double dates, all the fun stuff but I can't even go on a date with my husband. My husband wants to go on a date so badly, dinner and a movie but I can't do it. We'll get close to the restaurant and I'll chicken out and if we do go in a restaurant I can barely eat, I'm extremely anxious the entire time. I don't know it's just effecting all parts of my life. I'm scared to do anything. Anyway, that's my introduction. Sorry it's so long.
I'm not diagnosed with social anxiety but I strongly believe I have it. I was shy as a child but now I believe it's more than that because I'm not shy at all over the internet or with people I have known for a while. I always stuck with the same group of people in high school but would only really talk to my best friend and boyfriend at the time. After high school is when I really began to think my shyness was something more serious. I'm a likeable person but I still hate meeting new people. I will avoid it at all cost. I also avoid any family function I can get out of even if it's just a small dinner with close family that I've grown up around. I have had one major panic attack from being in a public setting. It was around Christmas the year before last. My husband and I had to do late christmas shopping because I kept making excuses not to go. We were in the store and I was trying to pick out presents for family, I started freaking out about if they would like it or not, then more people started coming into the store which then lead to hot flashes, nausea and I fainted. It was extremely scary but all I could think about was rather someone had seen it or not and I couldn't escape the store fast enough.
I want to make friends and I want to hangout with other moms, have playdates, double dates, all the fun stuff but I can't even go on a date with my husband. My husband wants to go on a date so badly, dinner and a movie but I can't do it. We'll get close to the restaurant and I'll chicken out and if we do go in a restaurant I can barely eat, I'm extremely anxious the entire time. I don't know it's just effecting all parts of my life. I'm scared to do anything. Anyway, that's my introduction. Sorry it's so long.
via Social Anxiety Forum http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f25/sa-and-bipolar-401377/
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