Hello, I suffer from different anxiety disorders, paranoia, plus bipolar disorder.
The anxiety disorders started 2008...and only got worse every year.
I've been on and off different anti depressents, tranquilizers, and anti psychotics for the entire period.
Ever since taking an antipsychotic Olanzapine, something happened to me, physically, that I can't believe is happening. Its been going on for a month. It made me feel fatigued and like my nerves were shaking and on edge to the point of me feeling like I was going nuts. I know I'm not nuts but when you have an anxiety disorder plus now those tremendous phsycial that happens. I thought I had diabetes, I was developing parkinsons....it sounded crazy to people...but thats just how bad I was feeling. Even as I'm typing this now, my fingers still begin to shake and I still feel ridiculous. I still feel uncomfortable and have a hard time expressing myself through words....
But since this all happened, I guess it humbled me extremely and taught me to never look with such a judgeful eye. Now I just try to live life day to day no matter how bad I feel...I know the feeling of really just wanting to kill yourself because you feel like such a worthless POS...this year has literally been the hardest year of my life and ironically the least active...I'm just still trying to recover from it all...I don't know if I had a nervous breakdown...but I'm just trying to shake it off day by day...
It's still really hard to take in and accept this has happened to me..but it is what it is I guess...
I used to be really active athletically and really into sports. I know since all these physcial symptoms happen, I can't do sports like I used to but I still am gonna try to box, mma, basketball, run and do my pushups, situps.
All I can say is I learned not to be so paranoid and just let life happen. And not to be a judgmental person and just be yourself and speak your mind. Thats better than any medication in my opinion. If I was a psychiatrist I would never prescribe drugs but would work more as a life coach because drugs can really ruin you. Best just find a simple hobbie like reading and just focus on that.
The anxiety disorders started 2008...and only got worse every year.
I've been on and off different anti depressents, tranquilizers, and anti psychotics for the entire period.
Ever since taking an antipsychotic Olanzapine, something happened to me, physically, that I can't believe is happening. Its been going on for a month. It made me feel fatigued and like my nerves were shaking and on edge to the point of me feeling like I was going nuts. I know I'm not nuts but when you have an anxiety disorder plus now those tremendous phsycial that happens. I thought I had diabetes, I was developing parkinsons....it sounded crazy to people...but thats just how bad I was feeling. Even as I'm typing this now, my fingers still begin to shake and I still feel ridiculous. I still feel uncomfortable and have a hard time expressing myself through words....
But since this all happened, I guess it humbled me extremely and taught me to never look with such a judgeful eye. Now I just try to live life day to day no matter how bad I feel...I know the feeling of really just wanting to kill yourself because you feel like such a worthless POS...this year has literally been the hardest year of my life and ironically the least active...I'm just still trying to recover from it all...I don't know if I had a nervous breakdown...but I'm just trying to shake it off day by day...
It's still really hard to take in and accept this has happened to me..but it is what it is I guess...
I used to be really active athletically and really into sports. I know since all these physcial symptoms happen, I can't do sports like I used to but I still am gonna try to box, mma, basketball, run and do my pushups, situps.
All I can say is I learned not to be so paranoid and just let life happen. And not to be a judgmental person and just be yourself and speak your mind. Thats better than any medication in my opinion. If I was a psychiatrist I would never prescribe drugs but would work more as a life coach because drugs can really ruin you. Best just find a simple hobbie like reading and just focus on that.
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